Call Me Home

morning after nauseous half-disasters
the calm is not so quiet in my head
it says 'you drink too much,
you're not in love with anyone,
you'll never say the things you never said'

oh it all seems really simple in a picture
somebody you don't know always works hard
and you're always just nursing some hangover
guilt-tripping over homeless works of art

i been lost, lost, lost brother
i been blinded by the sun and the Father
i got more, more, more than i can shoulder
but i'll be fine when i find my way home

morning after nauseous half-disasters
and i swear i'll get my act together soon
because this is not at all what i imagined
when i thought of all the things that i might do

oh it all seems really simple when you're little
naivety it such a fuzzy friend
and i'm not saying i'm wrecked or i am ruined
i just mistook the beginning for the end

and i got lost, lost, lost brother
i got blinded by the sun and the Father
i got more, more, more than i can shoulder
but i'll be fine when i find my way home

look
sometimes love is the reflection
of a building
in the water
on a night when everybody stays at home
and sometimes love's a puddled puzzle piece
obsolete and soggy
that becomes a whole new picture
on it's own

so we can bitch about how fast the world is spinning
or we can use the orbit for a whole new view
i know love will be the answer to my wandering
maybe i got lost so i could find you
i think i got lost so i could find you

so when you're lost, lost, lost brother
when you fly too close to the sun and the Father
when the world is more than you can shoulder
you come and find me,
you can call me home
come and find me,
you can call me home.

come and find me
and call me home.

Dear Depression

i try to hold on
but there's no use
the burn under my skin
starts the abuse
and i'm gone
and i'm gone

i lose all i know
i am controlled
by somebody else
i wrestle myself
and i'm gone
and i'm gone

oh dear depression
you've got me on my knees once more

oh, please can't you see
this is not me
dark devils inside
can't always fight them off
and i'm gone
and i'm gone

oh dear depression
you've got me on my knees once more

and i hate everything that i love
and i hate that i love anything
doctor please don't pull the plug
i'm such a sweet girl when i'm me

meet my depression
she's got me on my knees once more

Fire Under Water

yes, i remember how i met you
but we will not talk about it
reminiscing's what we left behind
to get where we are now
to get where we are now
yet, sometimes it feels like
we are still those
young and stunning strangers
you threw a shadow in my spotlight
i had a song called danger
i had a song called danger

but now i'm swimming in nothing
only blues are on my side
i got nothing to hope for, honey
i got nothing to hide
now i'm swimming in nothing
only blues are on my mind
and that ocean's endless deep
and that ocean's endless wide

but every time you look in my eyes
it's like fire under water, fire under water
every time you look in my eyes
it's like fire under water, fire under water
i go down, down, down, down, down
but i come up burning every time

yes, i remember how i met you
the serendipities and details
it's these kinds of moments
that give me a reason to believe
give me a reason to believe
now, every ship that i had captained
had been lost to stormy weather
'til you came along
and i thought we just might get home together
i thought we might get home together

but now i'm swimming in nothing
only blues are on my side
i got nothing to hope for, honey
i got nothing to hide
now i'm swimming in nothing
only blues are on my mind
and that ocean's endless deep
and that ocean's endless wide

but every time you look in my eyes
it's like fire under water, fire under water
every time you look in my eyes
it's like fire under water, fire under water
i go down, down, down, down, down
still come up burning every time

One & Only

met you in your shadow dark
absinthe bar
you shaved your head
it left a scar
we bunkered down
windowless room
our hateful sex
i love, you lose
you bathed me
laid me down clean sheet
we took half of that blue pill each
our vacant dates
carnival show
that ferris wheel
our highest low

i should have believed you when you said you felt the rope around your neck
instead i believed you when you said that we were back to back
and now i've never been one to ask for a hand
never been one to take what was given
never seen love so cold and undressed
never lived life so lifeless

oh, my one and only
only leaves me lonely
only leaves me lonely
oh, if i could only
leave my one and only

read all of your movie scripts with murder scenes
familiar faces all i see
my happy made you sad and sly
your honest made me bed for lies
a temper tantrums bloated world
staccato man and limber girl
the rippling walls
the paper moon
the dial tone
the dancers' doom

and i should have believed you when you said you felt the rope around your throat
instead i believed you when you said you still had hope
and now i've never been one to ask for a hand
never been one to take what was given
never seen love so cold and undressed
never lived life so lifeless

oh, my one and only
only leaves me lonely
only leaves me lonely
oh, if i could only
leave my one and only

your creeping creature
my bloodless heart
you fill me up
my shadow dark
i love you like i
love myself like
no one like
nobody else

i should have believed you when you said you felt the rope around your neck
instead i believed you when you said that we were back to back
and now i've never been one to ask for a hand
never been one to take what was given
never seen love so cold and undressed
never lived life so lifeless

oh, my one and only
only leaves me lonely
only leaves me lonely
oh, if i could only
leave my one and only

 

Drunk

suck the last drip up
drink the bottle dry
close my eyes
lies line up execution style
set the fuse in place
light the match and wait
light the match and wait

you're a batter up
i'm an empty cup
fill it up just don't push your luck 'cuz

i only love you when we're drunk
you only love me when we're drunk

drownin' out our lungs
feel the stomach flood
liquor loves me, hugs me, i unfreeze
turn over and touch me
that last drip really got me

now i'm all shook up
and i want your love
fill it up just don't push your luck 'cuz

i only love you when we're drunk
you only love me when we're drunk

i'm kinda soulless and stupid
you're kinda reckless and ruined
i try to tell myself there must be something there
but all these desperate epiphanies
they don't really mean anything
you're not even a friend to me really, honey

i only love you when we're drunk
you only love me when we're drunk

Because It Moves Me

i don't know what to do with these hands of mine
it looks like i've got twenty fingers
way they're shaking all the time
i am a child, i know that always
but i'm a daughter, and that i constantly forget
i've got a head that's like a bomb
threatening to detonate
and a heart that pumps as well as any other
but still aches
i'm in love with an unforeseen version
of a person i've already met
and i am humbled and afraid of all the things that i know that i don't know yet

they say work hard
they say play
they say work hard
they say play
but they think hard work is a montage from a movie
and i keep playin the same song because it moves me

sometimes i feel the way i light the room
and it's warm as any sun but shines like only can the moon
yet for all that i can be
i am more when i can see how bad he wants to be my fool
and i'm learning to get over feeling small
yeah, most people when they meet me now
they treat me really tall
yet for all that i may be
i am nothing so quickly when he don't call
and i am humbled and afraid to break a thing i have never touched at all

they say love hard
they say don't stay
they say love hard
but don't give it all away
but they think true love is a montage from a movie
and i keep sticking to this man cuz he still moves me

i don't know if i've missed the point by now
if the winds i've kept at bay have finally blown my house right down
i put all my energy towards saving one thing
to watch everything else drown
but there's got to be a fire that burns above
even with my shaking hands i can still grasp that kind of love
it is safe and it is real
it's the kind that makes you feel forever young
and i am humbled and afraid that i won't know it
when i finally shows up

they say work hard
they say play
they say love hard
then run away
and maybe life is just a montage from a movie
but i'll keep repeating the same song
long as it moves me
 

I Am Not A Star

i am not a star only shining in the dark
how can you work so hard and still always miss the mark
when the thoughts inside cannot outsmart the dart
i change the design of my divine genetic bars

i wanna fly
somebody send me up to space
i wanna go
get me away from my own race

i am bleeding from a hole that i cannot find
but when you touch it i feel infinitely inspired
the clowns and crazies are all around us baby
and you cry at night
yeah i cry sometimes at night

cuz i wanna fly
somebody send me up to space
i wanna go
get me away from my own race
i wanna fly
baby make haste
i wanna go
get me away from my own face

i am not a star i'm the whole fucking galaxy
i don't subscribe to your mediated fantasies
i'm crouching in crop circles
avoiding voices saying
tell me every mistake you've ever made
and i'll decide if you're insane

i gotta fly
somebody send me up to space
i gotta go
get me away from my own race
i gotta fly
baby make haste
i gotta go
get me away from my own face
get me away from my own face
get me away from my own face

 

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